Many of u have seen the cheerful and ever-smiling Brenda. I always want to bring joy to others by being joyful myself. However, there's time for everything. At those not-so-happy moments, I always choose to be honest with myself.
I do not know if it's finally the time for home-sick, culture shock (culture shock??) or the like, I somehow feel I'm so out of place. I grow bitter over many things. I am never good for anything..
I long to laugh with all my heart like I did.
For the days ahead, I will still smile like I always do. I will still try my best to be myself like I always do.. I do not know how long does this last but I am waiting for God to break the silence and speak to my heart.