BREAK FREE!

Brenda never has holiday.

She is overloaded with work work work work work work work multiply infinity.

Brenda is tired. 

When will I have break?

I'm really not in a mood to prepare for my speech competition on thurs. THURS EH! It's already tues, hello!

Whatever...

Planner filled with appointments which I wish I could escape... AhhhHHHHHH....

Thanks, wanlin for the encouragement after a hundred and one times of me complaining about my stress to u. 

BREAK FREE BREAK FREE BREAK FREE BREAK FREE BREAK FREE BREAK FREE BREAK FREE BREAK FREE BREAK FREE

I WANT TO BREAK FREE!

If only I can leave whatever that bothers me to the next day.. Do whatever I think I want to do right now.. Would people say that it's an irresponsible act? 

Countless nights which I cried myself to sleep.. coz I missed my home.. coz I had so much things to do and yet so little time.. coz I felt I am incapable.. coz I needed someone to be here physically to listen to me.. coz I sometimes hid my sadness behind a smile.. coz I repented for my short-sightedness not seeing God in the big picture.. coz I did not trust God enough to bring me through all this.. coz I wish to hug my mummy...

What I want the world to know!

Recess week is coming soon!!!

So as mid term exam...

I will not be able to meet mummy in KL due to her busy schedule which doesn't allow her to stay for another 2 more days there (mummy manages the shop herself.. she's just TOO responsible). Disappointed.

I love the song - Teardrops on my guitar by Taylor Swift. One of my fav country songs :)

I should stop drinking coffee because it causes me headache after that. I have the habit of getting a (large) cup of coffee before going to the library, simply because I THINK it would keep me awake. Addiction? Nah, more to a habit :P

I'm having too many things to do... Sometimes really stress me out. Woohoo, need to go near to God so that He would lift up my burden! ;)

Friends, do u know there's Someone who loves u unconditionally? Someone who plans your life, knows every single thought u have and every single word u wanna say even before it comes out of your mouth. His name is Jesus. 

He's the God worshipped by His children all over the world and amazingly, He said in the bible, He knows me, He knows my name and I am formed in His image. I am in awe of my God's love for me. His name is Jesus.

He longs for u to cry out to Him so that He can give u peace, peace that the world cannot offer and fill your life with overflowing love and joy. His name is Jesus. 

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. 

Matt 11:28-30

He is the God who transforms my life and helps me to understand the meaning of life. Not an obligation, but if u're willing, experience Him and u will testify the same. His name is Jesus.

Random

I am especially touched when a friend trusts me, even before I explain myself.

I think this is the best thing a friend could do for me. Trust me even when everyone else does not. A nod of understanding never fails to warm my heart when I am lost of words, anxiously and helplessly trying to explain myself.

I never forget the times I poured out all I had to strive for king scout. On the last night of the expedition, everyone else was fatigue and wanted to give up on climbing Mount Matang, which was the last task given to us. The rest agreed with letting only the guys go so that they could reach the mountain top faster and take a pic as evidence of the task accomplished and that we would not miss the last bus back to town. 

Despite the lethargy, I disagreed with the idea and insisted in following the guys to complete the last task, because I did not want to have regrets, regrets of giving up and cheat after I'd gone so far. 

No one was on my side. Others persuaded me. I knew what they meant and their rationale, but deep down in my heart I persisted. 

I didn't know what to do because no one understood. I withdrew myself and cried.

Feeling sober, I went back to the group. Then I looked at the leader, told him how much I wanted to go, how I wished he could understand.

Beyond my expectation........ he nodded. He said he did. Although he did not look at me when he answered that, his nod of understanding warmed my heart. 

When I thought no one understood, he did. 

A nod was sufficient. 

He is a friend who meant a lot to me. One who always support, one who understands and whom I can depend on. 

Thanks.