Sometimes when I'm all alone, having nothing particular to do and just let my mind wander... I always love to reflect of my past, the sweet times when I teared out of joy, and times when I shed tears due to heart brokenness.
Yes, now my mind isn't resting from recalling the days I'd been through...
I used to be an immature young lady. I still do. I learned as God put me through situations to learn His lessons.
There was this particular time of my life which I came across someone who was as innocent as I did. Not knowing specifically what I want for myself, not having any idea of being responsible of my very own deed. I was really innocent.. or rather ignorant.
Was it me who made it up or was it he who gave me the wrong idea? I didn't know and I fall deeper into it. Soon I realised thing wasn't as simple as I thought, it got complicated and I was confused.
Was it the wrong of the other party for not knowing the boundary or me who intepreted contrary? What I didn't realise was that it got more people involved and I knew I should pull myself out of it. God showed Himself strong in times of my weakness.
The idea of this entry isn't bout telling the story of my life. Instead, I just wish to share my thought. I believe all of u, at certain point of your lives, made mistake u thought was stupid due to your immaturity. We learn to know better what we want and what God wants for us as we mature through the circumstances He puts us through in lives. Cindy, a friend of mine whose blog I've always loved to read, wrote this in one of her many wonderful entries and I really cant agree with her more - God has the best for me, and why should I be so stupid to settle for the second best? Indeed. We always know the fact that God has the best for us, but, more often than not, we do not have enough faith to trust Him whole-heartedly regarding this fact.
Learn to put your trust in Him and u will realise He never fail to make u praise Him by pouring upon u incredible unforeseen blessings. Even more than your limited could ever imagine!
I believe this is the time God wants to draw me closer to Him and seek His strength.
God has been so good. We know it, don't we?
Indeed He has been faithful.
Lets make it an effort to share God's goodness and His faithfulness with all our hearts, everyday of our lives to the people around us especially our loved ones... Before it runs out of time..
Just came back from cg. My cg name is NYC A1 (NYC=Nanyang Campus).
This morning went for badminton game with my cg members. It felt so nice to sweat! =D
Then went to Qi Ming's place for a nap. His couch in the prayer room was COMFORTABLE! =D
At bout 6pm met up with the rest of the cg members then we had dinner at MOS. Burger there was superb! Going to try the famous rice burger next time! =)
Cg was great! It was more or less like the ones we had in Kuching. However, slight difference was that we're going to have Holy Communion during cg and they do not have testimony sharing, but it was totally fine with me. I can see that the group needs a GUITARIST! Johnson, I repented for not persevering in learning to play guitar from u.. I MUST TAKE UP THE CHALLENGE THIS TIME! Can I? I CAN?! AMEN! I WANA DO IT!
Felt presence of God during the p&w. Then our CGL, Serene-a cute and child-like girl, asked us to list down the areas to repent to God, areas we've seen ourselves grew over the past semester and set goals for the incoming semester which is also my FIRST semester in NTU! haha..
I find myself need to build up in having a servanthood heart to touch lives and love them with the love of God. I must stop self-pleasing and start God-pleasing! There are lots more areas that I need God to help me to improve and change.
In a nutshell, my cg ppl are wonderful bunch of ppl. Even though they are not as animated and as sanguine as me.. and the rest of the cg members I used to have in Kuching ---> MADGEN, I hope that my spirit can contribute a little in building up the atmosphere and relate to each of them. I look forward to more revelation from God regarding my future! =D
Little thought of the day: As I was on the way back to sch in the MRT, I reflected back what I told Serene that I'm not someone who can really persevere in doing something until the completion of it and I wana improve on that. Really ah.. I REALLY NEED TO PERSEVERE especially in keeping the fire to chiong for God!!!!
Oh gosh...
I'm in such a DILEMMA right now...
I saw a Nike bag that day when I was shopping with Chris and it costs 62sg!
It doesn't sound expensive right? 62sg. But it is actually RM140!
I need a school bag and I will need to get one anyway.
Do I really need such expensive bag???