What is causing this feeling that has been haunting me? I feel that no one understands me.
In fact, it has occurred numerous times after I came over to Singapore, I feel.. out of place.
It is definitely not that the family in Christ here isn't loving enough, instead, they take me as someone dear to them. But this feeling just keep coming back to me and make me step back, and think, do I really belong here?
Cruel but concise.
I am confused. Could it be that I am deceiving myself and the world when I am acting like a clown, being someone down-to-earth, sociable and bubbly? Could it be that the real personality in me is the anti-social, loner or even an extreme phlegmatic?
I need someone who know me well enough and honest enough to tell me that this is normal.. simply because I am away from home.
2 comments:
Brenda,
Well, i would say that it is normal process as a outstation student where we might not feel "fit-in" to the environment.
Give yourself sometime to adapt to the enviroment and make sure you enjoy yourself as a student. Don't stress yourself too much. Just make sure that you enjoy yourself.
:D
Heyz bren
You're not alone. For 6 years I've felt that way as well! Yes, not that the church ppl aren't loving... they're great ppl. It's just the feeling inside that I haven't found where I belonged yet.
Perhaps its simply because we are made for eternity and this temporary place will never satisfy us.
A practical advise would be... don't pressure yourself to always put on the "positive mask" simply because that's what christians are expected to do. It's very unhealthy to just show your good side to ppl. True friends are the ones who've seen the bad side of you but still love you.
cRoSbY
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