The message GOD has put in my heart

Last night, after attending friends' convocation, 3 graduates and I went for supper. They did reflection upon what had they done during their years in the university.

One of them shared that she wished she could have done more for God and His people. She felt it's pity that she didn't run the race consistently and with discipline and this had, in turn, short-changed the people under her care at that time. 

Another expressed that, in her years of growth as a university student, the pride in her had been a stumbling block for her to go even further for God and His kingdom. 

I thought...

One that day, I want to graduate with a big satisfied exhale, telling God, "Thank You for seeing me through these years! I've finished this stage of my life and I'm ready to move on!"

As I was reflecting through my first year in university, there had been times when I was stubborn and short-sighted, held on to what I thought was my life-time security, forgetting the fact that God knew and had what's best for me. I regretted after I was reminded of who God really was. It is as illustrated by C. S. Lewis.

"We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea."

God, forgive me for I have been ignorant. 

God then put this vision in my heart. 

On the beach, there's this child who is building the sand castle. Not a while after he has finished building it, the wave comes and blows away the sand castle. Upset. He builds up another one after much effort. Not long after, the wave comes and sweeps away the whole sand castle again. Frustrated. The child keeps building the sand castle over and over again after they fall apart, swept by the wave that keeps coming back. Finally, the child is fatigued and he gives up. 

Indeed, we have all been like the child before, building up the sand castle of our career paths, impression on others, facade that covers our true weak self. God keeps sending wave to sweep them all away over and over again, reminding us that all these have no eternal significance. But like the child, we are dissatisfied, feeling insecure and frustrated, keep ignoring God and shut him out in building our own dear sand castles with effort that is labored in vain. God keeps reminding me that He has something better for me, a holiday on the sea when I'm playing with muds, something that has eternal significance and last forever. 

I am refreshed by what He has spoken to me. 

Hope it speaks to you, too :)

Seeing GOD as my Father..

You know, there's this side of me which my parents can never stand when I manifest - W.H.I.N.E. =P

I whine when I want something from them.

I whine when things don't go my way.

I whine, most importantly, to get their attention! 

I remember mummy saying, "Can't you stop whining?? Will you only stop when things are done for you?!" 

HAHAHA. EXACTLY! I will stop when things are done for me! =P

I'm not sure about you, but I really do not mind trying this out on my Father in Heaven! Sounds childish, but well, God has called me His child and there's no point of turning back! 

What a great discovery I have today as I read the book by Cindy Jacobs "The Supernatural Life", in fact, whining to God is biblical! LOL!

Let me direct you to the book of Luke,

Luke 18:1-8

1 Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. 2 He said: "In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared about men. 3 And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, 'Grant me justice against my adversary' ". 4 "For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, 'Even though I don't fear God or care about men, 5 yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won't eventually wear me out with her coming!' " 6 And the Lord said, "Listen to what the unjust judge says. 7 And will not God bring justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? 8 I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?"

There you go, even God desires us to whine to him! =D

I've always been desiring to hear from God through words of wisdom, knowledge and prophecy. I have always been desiring to develop my spiritual gifts, the gifts of the Holy Spirit, that's the reason why I read Cindy Jacobs' book, too. 

Acts 2:17-21

'In the last days, God says, 

I will pour out my Spirit on all people.

Your sons and and daughters will prophesy,

your old men will dream dreams.

Even on my servants, both men and women,

I will pour out my Spirit in those days,

and they will prophesy.

I will show wonders in the heaven above

and signs on the earth below,

blood and fire and billows of smoke.

The sun will be turned to darkness and the moon to blood

before the coming of the great and glorious day of the Lord.

And everyone who calls

on the name of the Lord will be saved.'

It is biblical to ask for this gift and I will continue to pray and not give up!

Encourage you, too! Be persevering and fervent in prayer, whine until God can't take it, and He will then bless you from Heaven above! ;D

God loves you, friend

I do not know if I have ever broken anyone's heart this way, but I consciously realize that I'm getting more familiar with this hurtful feeling.

I took the same way back to the place.. hoping to meet an old friend. While I was driving, the route, which I used to take nearly every single day, summoned images of the times which I used to spend with the friend. 

I used to ring him every Sunday morning to make sure he's up from his bed.

He used to pick me up early on Sunday mornings for church service.

I was at the top of his wanna-reach-out-to list.

I remember him expressing his deepest hurt in front of me with tears. 

He is the one I never fail to mention when I share my life testimony.

I really wished I could be with him when he lost the man he loved the most on earth.

I know the tragedy was the turning point of his life.

In helplessness, I cried and grieved over what happened after.

I believe so as God who loves him the most. 

Dear friend, 

do not turn away from Him,

He who loves you so so much. 

What the world offers is temporal,

the love He has for you never changes.

I'm really happy to see you tonight. I have so many things to say but I swallowed it all nonetheless. I want to know your heart, I want to know what I can do for you.. 

I want you to know that I love you, friend..

and God loves you so so much more!