Isaiah 40:28-31

Do you not know?

Have you not heard?

The Lord is the everlasting God,

the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He will not grow tired or weary,

and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,

and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:28-30

Do I belong here? After all these while...

What is causing this feeling that has been haunting me? I feel that no one understands me. 

In fact, it has occurred numerous times after I came over to Singapore, I feel.. out of place. 

It is definitely not that the family in Christ here isn't loving enough, instead, they take me as someone dear to them. But this feeling just keep coming back to me and make me step back, and think, do I really belong here? 

Cruel but concise. 

I am confused. Could it be that I am deceiving myself and the world when I am acting like a clown, being someone down-to-earth, sociable and bubbly? Could it be that the real personality in me is the anti-social, loner or even an extreme phlegmatic? 

I need someone who know me well enough and honest enough to tell me that this is normal.. simply because I am away from home.