Isaiah 38:17
Surely it was for my benefit that I suffered such anguish. In your love you kept me form the pit of destruction; you have put all my sins behind your back.
How assuring, isn't it? This verse touched my heart. Thinking back of all the pain and hurts I thought I was going thru was unbearable, God assured me again that His love is unfailing.
All that I'm going through is for my benefit! God wants me to learn to depend on Him more instead of myself or someone else! Even our pain is in His plan.
Assurance comes from The Lord
Jer 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give u hope and a future.
Peace comes from The Lord
John 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
Psalms 30: 11-12
You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give you thank forever
Brenda, do not give up; GROW UP!!! =D
Haha.. sorry lah friends, I know it is really late to post up this entry but I post it for u guys anyway.. :P
I'm really happy my cg celebrated my 20th day with me.
Photos...... >>>> 
>>> My bdae cake! :D
>>> Before cutting the cake..
>>> My cgl, Serene and I. She's cute lerhhh.. haha..
>>> My shepherd, Qian Ru and I =) =) =)
p/s: She looks a lot prettier than how she appears to be in this pic! haha!
>>> Jing Ting, the gorgeous lady and I, the not so gorgeous lady.. LOL!
>>> Si Hui and I!!! Smaller? ya.. coz I look weird. lol!
PARDON ME FOR POSTING PICTURES THAT WILL CAUSE U GUYS TO HAVE NIGHTMARE. LOL! Nolah.. they look gorgeous right?? INDEED! Hehe..
There are 8 ppl in our cg. The other 3 bros are Aaron, Qi Ming and Kelvin. Aaron and Kelvin were busy that day so couldn come to join us..
So blessed to have this family that never fail to give me support and comfort!
***I'M GOING TO ZOO THIS WEEK! CANT WAIT!!!! HAHA!***
Sorry friends, for letting u guys to read about all the sentimental and melancoly posts lately.
Brenda is really weak emotionally. Easily hurt and depress in process of getting use to the new place.
As I was doing my reading for tutorial exercise, my roomie came in and announced to me that she might be moving.
"Hey, I might be moving to single room eh!" she said.
*STUNNED*
"Oh is it?? icic.." Responded lightly with a heavy heart, looking forward for further explanation from her.
"My friend said there's a single room available and asked if i wana take it, so I just say ok loh.."
That was all from her before she went to take bath.
I was left in room figuring the rationale of her decision..
After that we talked and she told me that it was actually due to the inconvenience of climbing up the staircase to the 6th floor after she sprained her knee for twice. It would be easier for her if she were to move to the single room at 4th floor.
Reason accepted.
There's none more convincing than this. I know she has been suffering from the pain of the previous injury. Good that she gets a room of lower floor because sometimes even I find it tough to climb to the 6th floor in order to get to my room.
Mind settled.
Brenda, you are left alone.. again..
Definitely, there will be someone else coming in soon. The school will never leave the double single-bed room with a vacancy.
Soon I will have new roomie again. Literally, not alone again. But it takes time and courage to build up the familiarity once again... This is what I've been doing, be it in room with roomie, in class with friends and everyone else I encounter here. Sometimes I find it tiring and rather choose to stay alone. Befriend with loneliness and talk to God, someone I am, at least, most familiar with..
Lord, I do not know what future brings, but I choose to be obedient. Guide me and build me, Lord.
All I have is You, all I need is You. In Jesus' most wonderful name. AMEN.
A very old cliche - Do u see the cup half empty or half filled?
How u view life depends on the angle u see it from. As God's child, I often remind myself to weight things with kingdom mentality.
I always love to listen to songs, looking back at the footprints I have made along the journey of life.. Have been being nostalgic huh? I admit I do.. =)
Just finished my tutorial, listening to all the old songs I used to love. I still do.. What an indulgence.. Priceless luxury.. indeed.
This is one of the ways I pamper myself when I am all alone.. =)
Many of u have seen the cheerful and ever-smiling Brenda. I always want to bring joy to others by being joyful myself. However, there's time for everything. At those not-so-happy moments, I always choose to be honest with myself.
I do not know if it's finally the time for home-sick, culture shock (culture shock??) or the like, I somehow feel I'm so out of place. I grow bitter over many things. I am never good for anything..
I long to laugh with all my heart like I did.
For the days ahead, I will still smile like I always do. I will still try my best to be myself like I always do.. I do not know how long does this last but I am waiting for God to break the silence and speak to my heart.
Sometimes when I'm all alone, having nothing particular to do and just let my mind wander... I always love to reflect of my past, the sweet times when I teared out of joy, and times when I shed tears due to heart brokenness.
Yes, now my mind isn't resting from recalling the days I'd been through...
I used to be an immature young lady. I still do. I learned as God put me through situations to learn His lessons.
There was this particular time of my life which I came across someone who was as innocent as I did. Not knowing specifically what I want for myself, not having any idea of being responsible of my very own deed. I was really innocent.. or rather ignorant.
Was it me who made it up or was it he who gave me the wrong idea? I didn't know and I fall deeper into it. Soon I realised thing wasn't as simple as I thought, it got complicated and I was confused.
Was it the wrong of the other party for not knowing the boundary or me who intepreted contrary? What I didn't realise was that it got more people involved and I knew I should pull myself out of it. God showed Himself strong in times of my weakness.
The idea of this entry isn't bout telling the story of my life. Instead, I just wish to share my thought. I believe all of u, at certain point of your lives, made mistake u thought was stupid due to your immaturity. We learn to know better what we want and what God wants for us as we mature through the circumstances He puts us through in lives. Cindy, a friend of mine whose blog I've always loved to read, wrote this in one of her many wonderful entries and I really cant agree with her more - God has the best for me, and why should I be so stupid to settle for the second best? Indeed. We always know the fact that God has the best for us, but, more often than not, we do not have enough faith to trust Him whole-heartedly regarding this fact.
Learn to put your trust in Him and u will realise He never fail to make u praise Him by pouring upon u incredible unforeseen blessings. Even more than your limited could ever imagine!
I believe this is the time God wants to draw me closer to Him and seek His strength.
God has been so good. We know it, don't we?
Indeed He has been faithful.
Lets make it an effort to share God's goodness and His faithfulness with all our hearts, everyday of our lives to the people around us especially our loved ones... Before it runs out of time..
Just came back from cg. My cg name is NYC A1 (NYC=Nanyang Campus).
This morning went for badminton game with my cg members. It felt so nice to sweat! =D
Then went to Qi Ming's place for a nap. His couch in the prayer room was COMFORTABLE! =D
At bout 6pm met up with the rest of the cg members then we had dinner at MOS. Burger there was superb! Going to try the famous rice burger next time! =)
Cg was great! It was more or less like the ones we had in Kuching. However, slight difference was that we're going to have Holy Communion during cg and they do not have testimony sharing, but it was totally fine with me. I can see that the group needs a GUITARIST! Johnson, I repented for not persevering in learning to play guitar from u.. I MUST TAKE UP THE CHALLENGE THIS TIME! Can I? I CAN?! AMEN! I WANA DO IT!
Felt presence of God during the p&w. Then our CGL, Serene-a cute and child-like girl, asked us to list down the areas to repent to God, areas we've seen ourselves grew over the past semester and set goals for the incoming semester which is also my FIRST semester in NTU! haha..
I find myself need to build up in having a servanthood heart to touch lives and love them with the love of God. I must stop self-pleasing and start God-pleasing! There are lots more areas that I need God to help me to improve and change.
In a nutshell, my cg ppl are wonderful bunch of ppl. Even though they are not as animated and as sanguine as me.. and the rest of the cg members I used to have in Kuching ---> MADGEN, I hope that my spirit can contribute a little in building up the atmosphere and relate to each of them. I look forward to more revelation from God regarding my future! =D
Little thought of the day: As I was on the way back to sch in the MRT, I reflected back what I told Serene that I'm not someone who can really persevere in doing something until the completion of it and I wana improve on that. Really ah.. I REALLY NEED TO PERSEVERE especially in keeping the fire to chiong for God!!!!
Oh gosh...
I'm in such a DILEMMA right now...
I saw a Nike bag that day when I was shopping with Chris and it costs 62sg!
It doesn't sound expensive right? 62sg. But it is actually RM140!
I need a school bag and I will need to get one anyway.
Do I really need such expensive bag???