26th October 2006

Hey!
Glad that I am able to blog tonight! My bro is out so.. WaHaHahaha.. the pc is mine to use!
Those who have been praying for me regarding my sherpherd, God has answered our prayers! It was during the "Zealous Night".. The night that had set my heart on fire.. Literally, we had fire on, the BBQ, and I believed everyone's heart was set on fire as well! I really thank God for sending Chye Lin to me as my sherpherd. Before that, I somehow had the feeling that she might be my sherpherd and Kia Ing once told me that she might just be the one that I'd been praying for coz she and I are quite close. Haha.. Chye Lin, HuggiessssSS =)
I wonder if it's the internet connection that is poor, why cant I download the song that keeps playing in my mind since the night Chang Ting and gang sang it? Heart of worship-Hillsong.
My next A2 paper is on 30th. Maths. I guess I have prepared well enough for that. In fact, what worries me is Physics, and probably, Chemistry. I will continue to pray for God's wisdom.
I am reading a book borrowed from my cousin entitled "Life on the Edge" by Dr. James Dobson. It is indeed an appropriate book for my stage right now as I am on the life edge, trying hard to figure out where should I go, which university should I enter, what course should I take. In my mind, there is an ideal university that I wish to enter, Nanyang Technology University, Singapore (NTU) and I hope to take up actuarial science. As I am not born with silver spoon in mouth, I have to do my best to have someone else to pay for my university fee-scholarship sponsors. As what I know of, Singapore universities offer students who are excellent in academic tuition grant with 80% tuition fee off. That sounds pretty attractive to me and the tuition grant is what I really hope to get. Nonetheless, I commit everything to The Lord and I know He has wonderful plan for my life. I used to have the desire to study overseas and to explore the world; now, the little heart of mine just long to please The Lord and to do His will.

... I'm coming back to the heart of worship and it's all about You, it's all about You, Jesus...

Heart of worship - Hillsong

When the music fades

all is stripped away and I simply come

longing just to bring

something that's of worth that will bless Your heart

I bring You more than a song

for a song in itself is not what You have required

You search much deeper within

through the way things appear

You're looking into my heart

Chorus

I'm coming back to the heart of worship

and it's all about You

It's all about You, Jesus

I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it

when it's all about You

It's all about You, Jesus

King of endless worth

no one could express how much You deserve

though I'm weak and poor

all I have is Yours

every single breath

I bring You more than a song
for a song in itself is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

Chorus

22 October 2006

It seems like constant blogging is not what I can do before my bro gets a new monitor. I used to be someone who eagerly want to blog things that excited me, stuff that bothered me, ppl that I cared much for and how I looked at the revolving world.. but not now buddies, not now..
Is it mere coincidence that the time I can update my blog, after my monitor is dead, is always a Sunday? At least it was so for the previous post (15th Oct-Sunday!).
I do not write good, interesting blog, neither am I able to use BOMBASTIC words, beautiful vocabulary and perfect grammar to express myself. I wonder if there are still ppl who would come to visit my blog from time to time to look up for new post. I used to visit some of my friends' blogs from time to time, at least once in a week, to see if they post new stuff. Of course, they are good bloggers.. The never-lower-than-A scorers in English.
The M.A.D. gen college group is going to have a BBQ this Tuesday night! It's Raya night, ppl! For those who received the invitation cards (...even though I don't think the ppl who received the cards read my blog..) How is it? Nice lerh?! Haha.. Of course lah... Brenda made one boh.. erkhem.. May all the glory goes to God. It was He who gave me the inspiration and the gifted creativity. After all, He created me mah! =P
Went out for drink with Hubert and gang on Friday night after the prayer meeting. When I got home, I was too tired to do my revision so I took out the Bible to read. Then I read a line, "Do not let others look down on you because you are young, but set an example to the believers in your speech, life, love and faith" (I quoted it out spontaneously, so excuse me for some minor mistakes in order and missing of words) I put down the Bible, ashamed. I joked a lot about nasty stuff and teased my friends in disrespectful manner. I was ashamed for I had sinned. I sms Hubert to apologise for the nasty stuff I teased him. Even though he said he did not mind, but I felt guilty. I requested him to stop me whenever I started to sin in my speech again. I confessed to God and prayed for Him to help me to change in that particular area. I must set an example to others as a young Christian! I must change!
Went to jog with Joslyn on Saturday morning. The chilly air in the morning refreshed my mind. Jogging and doing exercise in the morning is really refreshing besides helping to boost our immune system. By the way, we weren't that lucky that morning. My car got unlocked by the I-dont-know-who and Joslyn's handphone and her money in her wallet were stolen. Guess how much she had in her wallet? RM90! I was shocked to hear that she had so much in her wallet and it was gone! When I was driving her home, Joslyn prayed for the stolen money to be used for good purpose and that it could be a blessing to the person who stole the money while I prayed for the lost of handphone and money be a blessing to Joslyn. She just told me that her bro is going to get her a new phone, so isn't the lost a blessing? =P For those who know that I just got myself a new phone, u might wonder, how about mine? Being stolen as well? Thank God, NO! Mine was in a black phone case so he couldn't see mine! I REALLY thank God for that... I really cant imagine how would I react if mine was lost as well. *Touch Wood!!!*
That's all for this week. I have to get back to my Chemistry. Have a blessed week! Till the next post.. Take care!

15 Oct 2006

It has been so long since the last post I posted. My monitor isn't working so I have no choice but to spend the time I used to face the monitor facing the books. To be honest, it is uneasy for one like me who has the NEED to go online every waking moment.
Before I get things started, allow me to wish a brother of mine >>> Johnson Woan, HAPPY 18th BDAY!!! He's someone who has greatly encouraged me spiritually by his characteristics and BIG heart for God. (... I am looking at his pictures in friendster.. Hehe.. )
Sunday service was GREAT! The praise and worship session was awesome, Johnson testified the goodness of our GREAT God, touched by Bro Ricky's sharing on prejudice entitled "Reaching Out", we planned to have a BBQ during our care group meeting on Hari Raya (Thank God I am able to join!!! AHH! I have not attended cg meeting for so long due to the night classes that I can't skip)... Hahhhh there is joy in the presence of the Lord!
Had been studying Physics after I came back from church. HARD, UNCOMPREHENSIVE, COMPLICATED. I was greatly disappointed with my own ability. Sighed and sighed over the results that I got after practising with the past year papers. I was distressed for not being able to reach the aim. I did not know what had gone wrong.. I guessed it was because I did not understand the topics well enough. I prayed for God's wisdom and committed my exam unto His mighty hand. I was reminded of His word, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do no be afraid" NIV John 14:27 Yes, I find consolation in His word. Thank You Lord.
Joslyn is back here in Kuching and I cant wait to see her. I am still praying for my shepherd. Looking forward to going to my church MNC (Malaysia National Convention). Still working hard on A2 exam. Still the Brenda who has passionate heart for Christ. Till the next post, God bless and take care

The First!

Hey people!
This is the first post of this blog of Brenda's! Actually I have been blogging at friendster blog (http://brendalikeme.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/) but in order to let more people who do not have friendster to read about me, I have got myself a NEW blog! Yay! Ok, let's get started!!!
Spent this morning at church. Ps Simon is back! I was really touched by his sermon on Friday prayer meeting. He spoke on progression. Everyone of us needs to progress, otherwise we would most probably be in a position of static or even digressing! Therefore, armies of God, PROGRESS!
Praise The Lord! I have finally finished my Vision and Philosophy (V&P) class! Thanks Sister Annie! She is indeed a great teacher, who not merely teach what is written in the booklet, but much more than that! (That's why she took longer than a quarter to let us graduate! =p) She shared with us her personal experiences in her walk with God, her relationship history with Bro Derrick, the relationship of hers with her family and many many more.. I thank God for each V&P class because I find myself to have learned a lot from this Word for Life class. Each and every personal experience shared by Sis Annie was inspirational and I know she had tried her very best to let us learn as much as we can in this 3 months.. The rest is left for us to discover and experience ourselves in our own walk with God.
As a 10 months old baby Christian, Ps Simon motivatedd me with his sermon on Friday prayer meeting.
He said, "You may be just a baby christians, but do you know that babies can bite? Yes! You can bite, too! By God's grace you can defeat the devil! In Jesus' name! At the toughest time, fight till the very end and expect help from our Mighty God!"
How encouraging it is! We have nothing to fear for we have our God to back us up! I Thank God for guiding me to the right path, for leading me to the light, for bringing me back to Him again... "Was lost but now I found, was blind but now I see..."
My heart was really stirred by what Ps Simon had preached. When I went home on Friday night, I knew I must do something.. I must progress.. Then, I spoke to The Lord, I prayed for a sherperd.
I told God, "Father God, I really need a sherperd, a sherperd who can lead me and help me in growing spiritually. Lord, I long to grow in You. I will sms Chang Ting and ask for her help in assigning me a sherperd. Lord, Kia Ing them have already got their sherperds but why not me, Lord? Is it that it's not the right time yet? If You have Your chosen one for me, Lord, sent her to me via Chang Ting. Lord, if it's Your will to let me wait for Your perfect timing, let there be no reply." Immediately after I prayed, I messaged Chang Ting. Firstly, I shared with her how greatly encouraged I was by Ps Simon's sermon and she replied and said that she agreed and asked me which part did I find encouraging, so I told her what was in my heart. Then, there was no reply from her. I did not know when will I find my sherperd, or the other way round, when will my sherperd finds me, but I have faith that my Lord has His appointed one for me. Probably I just have to pray harder. Those who have faith that God will provide me with a sherperd, please pray for me as well. Thanks.